Hello again, Bean | Pregnancy & Infant Loss Blog

Not a day goes by where I am not thinking of you. While today wasn't especially difficult, I did catch myself whispering blissfully, "Hey, friend!"

It brings a smile to my face when I think of you-which is all the time! I feel an inexplicable peace in the thought of you being able to hear me from wherever you are.

But it's in the quiet moments that I am plagued with the bitter realization that you can never respond.

Sometimes, I close my eyes and just listen to the hum of the silence that fills our home. This isn't a vacant space- it yields the weight of your memory, and your brief presence. The silence is the wave upon which our thoughts and feelings can be transmitted.

Through this we are able to share all the things time didn't permit. It's how I am able to envision the softness of your fingertips on my skin as you smush my face.

Like a blanket, silence holds the tender touches that never were, and the tears from eyes I longed to wipe. Cradled around my core, I am reminded of what was lost… and somehow, what still remains.

Here is where I feel the closest to you. How do you cherish your pregnancy and infant loss journey? Who are you thinking of today? Drop their name in the comments if you'd like to honor them with us.